Watching "Jamie at Home" on Discovery Travel and Living while posting... I love Discovery channel thou I hardly watch TV nowadays... Jamie's house is like my dream home, when I was 18 I told myself and my friends that I could only retire in 2 ways; either in a beach house somewhere in Hawaii or in a country house somewhere in England where I can also do some gardening and pick off vegetables from my own garden for cooking.... But guess that has sorta change....
These few days I have been nursing a heartache haahaa ok ok guess its not that extreme but i do feel a little sad... because its official, he is not the one... It ended before it started... Was thinking of my life and how dramatic it is with all the twist and turn of plots in my love life, my family, my ministry, my work etc...
To cut to the chase, he is not the one....Thought he was special and that he might be the one but guess I should have trusted that gut feel which I always refuse to acknowledge the existence of when I am blinded by my feelings.... I thank my friend for volunteering the info to me and I thank my God for showing me before I sink deeper in.... Even thou I may not agree with the way he do things but I don't blame or judge him either.. All I can conclude is that what we are looking for is different... Guess the main difference is that I believe in the starfish story but he doesn't... To me, every single person is important and special and makes a difference but guess to him people are just like commodities....Well, closure and his "ink" dries up on this page of my life... I still refuse to accept that negative notion....
I still believe in the prophecy that I will meet the right one You prepared for me this year, maybe he has already appeared maybe he will appear in the next 4 days but I trust that everything is in Your hands... I claim the verse in 1 Cor 10:13.... You will make a way out even when I am tempted... :)
These few days, I've been..... 