My Love is....

With wide eyed curiousity, many people have been asking, how come you never set aside time for dating? Aha! Truth is I would love to have someone in my life but I only want the best and I am waiting patiently, BUT I am also in the midst of working at being the best myself so that I can attract the best!
Looking at the photos I took few years ago, I felt I have aged quite abit and put on massive weight in a span of 2 yrs. After my break up 2 yrs ago, I have been on a bingeing spree and my diet has changed much. SOOO time to get back into the limelight but I want to work more at my exterior first.
Must admit that I have been rather sloppy when it comes to making myself look good on the outside hooh. But it's time for a change. Balance is the key. I want to be beautiful on the inside and outside as well!!!
Been single for 2 yrs but it is thru dating myself that I found back myself and discovered my likes and dislikes. It is also a time of digging out the "me" that's always 'shrouded with mystery' or some say "simply complicated". Many people commented in the past that I seem to have Dissociative identity disorder more commonly know as "split personality" but guess it was a time where I was searching for who I am, plus there are so many facades to my personality that sometimes I have to decide what I want to be. Whatever's the case, truth is I found back the real me thru this time of being unattached.
Been in the status quo of "attached" for total of 12 yrs which makes these 2 yrs a refreshing change. I love being unattached now and does not want to change the status unless there is a compelling reason to. I discovered what I really want and need and most importantly found back that I really do need alot of space and there is so much more to life!
I therefore announce that I need a man who is fiercely independent and can give me the space I need. He must have his own life and is immensely focused on his career and the pursuing of his dreams, someone who can constantly challenge me to keep growing in my potential.
I know my God has the best in store for me and I wait patiently while working vigorously at the fine-tuning of myself.

In these 2 short years, there had been some men who came and went, people who left a few words on my book of life, some a few sentences, some a few pages, some maybe even a whole chapter or so. Regardless of the amount of ink used, whether its pain or joy they brought, one thing is for sure: each experience is unique in its own rights. These people have unquestionably crafted my character and personality in a big or small way. And I made sure that i derive something positive out of each encounter.
So far, none has made it thru as the main lead in my story yet.... Many people, myself included, mistakenly thought its coz i have not gotten over my previous 7 yrs relationship that has eaten me up. Truth is, I actually enjoy dating myself and am secretly savouring this process of self discovery with my God. Unless I can find someone who can win the me currently dating myself + find approval with my daddy God, why would I want to be with that person? Why do I want to waste precious time to be with someone who will not make it thru to the end?
I love my life and all the people and things in it cos they make me who I am now and who I will be in future. As long as I have Him, my God, I know everything is going to be alright.

Hallelujah for my life and all the things and people who made an appearance on my story!