Dreams...

I am a dreamer. I am a visionary. Without visions and a sense of where I am going to, I will have absolutely no drive for anything, I will be floating along with the tide of time and dreading every moment of it. There is a kind of beauty in the visualization of the future. There is a feeling of hope in the envisioning of what has not come to pass yet. At the age of 18, i wrote a 9 pages full description of the person I want to become and the things I want to achieve in 20 yrs time. Along the way, when I met many setbacks and distractions, i sort of put that dream aside, it sort of died on the inside of me.

12 yrs down the road. I am still half way there but by now my dreams and visions have evolved. When I met You again in 2006 March, You ignited a part of me that I have long forgotten and thought had died. When You came with all Your dreams and visions, it was like all the pieces of the puzzle are finally coming together. I finally found that sense of purpose I have been craving all these years for. Was living in constant dread of my life, surrounded by pain, misery and depression, sinking and spiralling down down down, my flesh seems to love to indulge in all these junk. But when You came into my world, I found that home that I have been searching all my life for. Home is where You are; in essence, when i walk in Your will, there You will be, when I come back after a hard day out in the world, You are that secret place I can go to.

Yes, I am still in the process of metamorphosis but this time I am not alone in this, I have You. I am not there yet but I know I will and when I arrive there, it will not be the terminus but I will embark on to the next terminus ad quem. I am determined to keep on going. And I am determined to make an impact on this world so that by the time I am ready to see You, I would have left a positive & indelible mark on this world. Yes, just to hear You say, "well done good and faithful servant".

Stocktaking on my current circumstances, it may seem almost unattainable but I believe that all things are possible with You. I look forward to and will strive to walk in the reality of the visions and dreams you have given me. Help me be a walker...

IT MAY SEEM IRONIC BUT THERE IS TRULY A STRANGE KIND OF LIBERTY IN KNOWING THAT I AM WALKING IN YOUR WILL.