Get up again

I declare from this moment on, I am starting from ground zero in all major areas of my life. I will find back the Janice that I lost in these past few months of being sick. I will find back the health I lost physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually. The bible says that if I will make Him my shelter and dwelling place, He will help me deal with all the attacks I am getting and He will keep me stable and fixed.

The bible says Let the weak say I am strong! By His grace, I will get back up again! :)

Plan A; No more distractions

An unexpected chance encounter

In the most unlikely scenario

Among all the many people in my utmost awkward moments

My heart skipped a beat when I first saw you

My logic told me you can't be the one

Your logic informed you i can't be the one

Circumstances whispered that we might not be the ones

Had to jump a few hurdles before our hearts met

You thug at my heart's string when you choose to be open with me

You took a chance to be break down some walls

I have never felt so secure with anyone

Will you touch my heart in a way no one ever will?

Like the plot in a movie with God as the director

Do you have God's finger prints all over?

Are you part of the grand plan conjured up by our Lord?

Are you the one He put in my dreams?

You seem to look beyond my exterior and love me more for the colorful landscape I have on the inside

You seem to fit the description of the one I have been praying for

You said I seem to meet the requirements of the list of qualities of the one you been praying for

We seem to see each other's face in our prayers

You said you don't know what you can give me

You said you seem to be mainly the one on the receiving end

I never told you that I feel you have so much to give

I never told you that I sense the you beyond your exterior too

Are you the final stop?

No more temptations and distractions

No more guessing and wishing
No more bruises and cracks

Prophecy fulfilled in the last hours of 2008?

I have been wrong so many times before

But this time the signs seem so clear

Could you really be that elusive right one?

Unlike the many others in the past

This time you know and love Him as much

This time you will be praying and believing with me

This time we are both searching for the peace that comes with His will for us

Let's surrender all in His hands
Believe His hands will guide as He always has

How I long to hear you tell me the trivial stuff that happens to you daily for the rest of my life

How I long to be the one who travels with you to the places you love for the rest of my life

2009

2009 marks the entrance of a new phrase in my life.

2008 was a year primarily ruled by relationship distraction.

This year will be a year of focus.

I have just gone through my goals for this year and I am excited about what this year will bring!

New year new things new visions!!

Next please

Watching "Jamie at Home" on Discovery Travel and Living while posting... I love Discovery channel thou I hardly watch TV nowadays... Jamie's house is like my dream home, when I was 18 I told myself and my friends that I could only retire in 2 ways; either in a beach house somewhere in Hawaii or in a country house somewhere in England where I can also do some gardening and pick off vegetables from my own garden for cooking.... But guess that has sorta change....

These few days I have been nursing a heartache haahaa ok ok guess its not that extreme but i do feel a little sad... because its official, he is not the one... It ended before it started... Was thinking of my life and how dramatic it is with all the twist and turn of plots in my love life, my family, my ministry, my work etc...

To cut to the chase, he is not the one....Thought he was special and that he might be the one but guess I should have trusted that gut feel which I always refuse to acknowledge the existence of when I am blinded by my feelings.... I thank my friend for volunteering the info to me and I thank my God for showing me before I sink deeper in.... Even thou I may not agree with the way he do things but I don't blame or judge him either.. All I can conclude is that what we are looking for is different... Guess the main difference is that I believe in the starfish story but he doesn't... To me, every single person is important and special and makes a difference but guess to him people are just like commodities....Well, closure and his "ink" dries up on this page of my life... I still refuse to accept that negative notion....

I still believe in the prophecy that I will meet the right one You prepared for me this year, maybe he has already appeared maybe he will appear in the next 4 days but I trust that everything is in Your hands... I claim the verse in 1 Cor 10:13.... You will make a way out even when I am tempted... :)

Breaking the notion

Recently I have been having this brewing sense of deja vu and it scares me.
I have always been somewhat postive but I can't really say so when i meet someone I really feel something for.

I wished I can put whatever experiences I used to have especially the not so good ones behind but each previous encounters I have only adds on to the horrendous notion embedded somewhere in my subconscious that..........

I refuse to give in to the thoughts that comes with this notion...
Believe this time you will be different.

Please please prove that notion wrong this time.

Waiting

I have been giving myself an unofficial break for past few days.

Waiting can be a tedious process sometimes...

Sometimes when I am into something or someone, I can be real crazy about it BUT I get bored easily and once I lose interest in it totally I won't turn back.

Guess if I were a guy without much principles, I ll probably be a notorious playboy ha ;p
But I believe what goes round comes back to you and the principle of sowing and reaping and the principle of not doing onto others what I don't want to be done onto me.

Yes, there are certain things I am waiting for now and Corrinne May's "Everything In It's Time" best describe my situation and attitude....



James 1:3-4 says

3Be assured and understand that the trial and proving of your faith bring out endurance and steadfastness and patience.
4But let endurance and steadfastness and patience have full play and do a thorough work, so that you may be [people] perfectly and fully developed [with no defects], lacking in nothing.

Keep on keeping on

These few days, I've been.....

Walking the same pavements

Humming the same songs

Skipping along the same road

Seeing the same person in my mind

Typing the same lines

Watching the same figures

Sitting on the same chair

Doing the same work

Reading the same books

Sleeping on the same bed

Listening to the same songs

Hiding in the same room

Mediating the same quarrels

Facing the same problems that were not even mine

Loving the same people who gave me these problems

Sacrificing for the same people who created this mess

IT'S TIME FOR A BREAKTHRU!